Aching

I wish I had better news to share. The truth is, my heart is aching. We found out that, once again...we will receive an update mid-JULY as to the progress of all this government "stuff." I don't really want to assume that I know what's going on anymore, but it basically means that our program continues to be at a stand still until then. It's hard to stay hopeful when you wait with baited breath for the end of the review or the next update, only to have your legs swept out from under you again and you are told to hang in there. We try to enjoy each day, but when you are so ready to welcome this child into your family...there are days when it just hurts too much.

Of course, there are things to be thankful for and to look forward to (finishing up the school year, RUN 143, summer weather, time with each other, etc.). We also know that it will "all be worth the wait" and once we see our little babe's face the painful wait will probably seem like a distant memory, but it doesn't dismiss the fact that right now it's hard. The difficulty in waiting for something that doesn't have a definite end is something we can't explain.

There are times when I don't know how or what to pray anymore. God knows my heart, He's heard my pleas and He is powerful and able to turn things around. So for now, I am choosing just to rest in knowing that He loves me. Truly loves me. Deep in my heart, I know that He has my best interests in mind even though I can't possibly understand why this all needs to be prolonged any more than it has. I will continue to cling to the peace that comes from knowing a loving God.

I found this song a couple of weeks ago and it's been a blessing to me. I find a lot of times that music has a way of speaking to me more than anything.

Thanks for thinking of us, praying for us, reading our thoughts and travelling this journey with us. We are so grateful.