My emotions are all over the place (as they have been for the past while!). I have moments where I'm feeling quite positive about the whole process. We have awesome support, a great agency, time for just the 2 of us and we feel incredibly blessed to have this opportunity to adopt. There are days though (and more of them lately) where I just want to curl up and sob. This waiting is stinkin' hard and to be positive ALL the time is nearly impossible. I try, I really do, but even as I sit here, the tears are flowing. We're done with waiting. We want to start our family. How long is this going to take?
I don't know what else to say right now, but please keep praying for us. As a bit of an update...the Canadian Immigration & Custom's department in S.A. is doing an audited review of the adoption process in S.A. We don't know exactly why they are doing the review, but apparently this happens in many of the international adoption programs. The review is supposed to be over sometime around the end of Jan. so please pray hard that anything negative that could come as a result of the review, doesn't. I believe and trust in a God bigger than the government and their "agenda."
Sorry for the not-so-cheery post, but I thought I should be honest.
I hope you are all having a great start to the New Year and I hope to be able to share good news with you soon.
Hang in there..we are praying for you and Ian & that all goes smoothly too! You have been such a blessing to us and look forward to a visit in the near future.
ReplyDeleteLove, Candra
Thinking of you. Waiting is SO hard. Though I have one precious child I understand that being done with waiting, wanting to grow a family, the sobs and tears. Hugs my friend. We will pray that this is the year you will have a baby in your arms.
ReplyDeleteOh Heidi! The wait is so hard some days...there is no need to apologize for that. Unless you've been in that situation, I don't think you could understand how painful the uncertainy really is at times. But we are praying for you and for your little one and hope so much that you will be able to hold him/her soon.
ReplyDeleteMary
It is so very hard. Especially waiting for your first. Do what you need to get through your days and I really hope good news starts rolling in soon.
ReplyDeleteI can relate so very much to your "How long is this going to take?" question. While we weren't waiting on the adoption process (and I'm sure that process has many of its own unique questions and struggles), we asked that question many many times as we waited our three and a half years to start our family due to infertility. May God speed the process and bring your child to you in 2011!
ReplyDeleteInstead of just lurking around I wanted you to know that I found your blog and will be praying along with you as you grow your family.
ReplyDeleteI found your blog because of a comment you left on my sis-in-law, Jessica's, blog.
Thanks for being honest and authentic.
Juanita