I've been having the HARDEST time wanting to go to work lately. That's unusual for me because I honestly love my job and have often looked forward to going to work in the morning. Maybe it's because of the smiling, adorable faces of the kids (well, most of them :) ) that greet me every day or maybe it's because I have always felt that my job is making a difference in the lives of those kids that struggle in school. Whatever the reason, work has never seemed like a "have to" but more of a "want to".
Now, a bit of history for you. For as long as I can remember, I have wanted to be a mom...a stay at home, bake cookies, help at school, colour & craft, cuddle up on a rainy day, keep the house in order kind of mom. In fact, in my grade 8 speech I said that being a stay-at-home mom was what I wanted to do with my life. My mom stayed at home with us while we were growing up and I loved every minute of it! I've never doubted those desires God has placed in me.
Anyway, I think I just feel ready for that chapter of my life to start. I've been longing to stay at home in my comfy sweats, clean, bake and make sure my house is in order. I'm not all that surprised as I've always been more of a homebody; however, maybe it's more than that. Wikipedia says that the nesting instinct "may be the strongest just before the onset of labor." Hmmmm...of course I'm getting ahead of myself, but you never know...maybe a referral is just around the corner. :)
As a side note, 8 months ago today, our dossier was mailed to South Africa. Some days it feels like an eternity ago and some days it feels the time has flown by. Either way, each month that passes brings us closer to meeting our little bundle of joy.
In the meantime we could always use your prayers: for continued patience & financial provision, for our baby who we love so much already, for the social worker in South Africa (Robyn) who is working tirelessly to find families for these children and for us as we prepare.
Well, I'm off to enjoy the cozy fireplace with my husband on this cold, snowy evening!
Thanks for reading
I can't wait to come visit you when you finally have your baby in your arms. Praying for you, Ian, your baby, and all who is involved in this process.
ReplyDeleteI always pictured myself doing all those things too and I'm still in awe that it is truly how I pictured. If Wikipedia said it MUST be true! We are praying for you, your beautiful wee one, and Robyn.
ReplyDeleteUntil that baby is in your arms, soak up every quiet minute by the fire with your hubby.
Mary
Big hugs Heidi, it's so tough waiting, and you see everyone with their kids and it's a reminder that your child is still not with you, it's hard. Your time is coming, we hope this time next month, the flood gates open and referrals start pooring in! We've had a dry spell!
ReplyDeleteCan't wait to see your little one in your arms :)
I love your mother's heart already Heidi. I pray your waiting is over soon. I pray that in your preparation for your bundle's arrival that you and Ian will grow closer together to be a solid foundation for this hand picked blessing in your lives! Blessings :) Darla
ReplyDeleteWe are praying that the waiting will be over soon. You are handling this with so much grace and patience. You truly are! We can't wait to meet the baby God has chosen for the 2 of you! Thinking of you often.
ReplyDeleteI just caught up on your blog. Thanks for sharing your thoughts and your heart. I'm sorry work is a struggle. This last week I missed work, not the actual work, but I missed seeing you and spending our lunch break together. I'm praying that God will grant you the desires of your heart and that you will be a mommy real soon. I know you and Ian will make incredible parents. Can't wait to see the little babe God provides for you! So excited!
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