It's hard to know what to write when I have no real news to share. I feel that you'll be bored listening to my emotional roller coaster ramblings, but I feel that I need to get back on track and focus this blog on our adoption. I'm sure I'll still fill you in on what else is happening in our lives, but what I really want is for this to be about our adventure of adopting.
So that said...it's been a tough (well, tougher) week for me. The waiting just hit harder than it has in a while and I must admit, a few tears were shed. It's just so hard to explain and until you're in it you just don't realize the impact it has on you...emotionally, physically, spiritually. Our lives are in limbo right now which just emphasizes the importance for us to anchor our hope and trust in Christ. It's truly the only thing that's going to get us through this time.
Lately I've been thinking that I need to get back to setting up the baby room, reading about adoption/parenting, picking baby names and getting excited about all of that. So today I went to the adoption support centre to pick up a couple of books and it felt good. We're also going to keep working on the baby room. Ian has decided to do panelling/wainscotting in there and I'll keep looking for things to make it "homey" for our amazingly adorable new addition (I just know he or she will be cute!)
One of the books I picked up today is called "Labor of the Heart". That's exactly it. This child will be born of my heart. It's amazing how this little person, who we know nothing about, has such a special place in our family already and the day can't come soon enough when we get to meet them in person.
Thanks for listening. We appreciate your support, thoughts and prayer so much!
Oh guys, my heart aches for you. The waiting game is a tough one with many tears. May God bless you with your little bundle of joy in his perfect timing and may you have peace and confidence as you wait for that timing...
ReplyDeleteYou & Ian are in our prayers a lot..and hopefully even more people's as I sent out a prayer request on my blog! I found the second copy of the book "adopted for life" if you want to borrow it. We also have several on SA if you want/ We love you guys and want you to know that whatever you need, please let us know.....
ReplyDeleteHey Heidi,
ReplyDeleteI have been there, I am there, I understand. It's freaking hard, super hard. You're up, you're down, you're all around. When you get to the end, it's 100000000 times worth everything you went through, but at the time, right now, it's hard. If you ever need to chat my e-mail is, rkturgeon@sasktel.net
Talk anytime!!
Hey there Heidi,
ReplyDeleteBeen there, done that, bought the T-shirt. So stinkin' hard to keep waiting! It WILL happen - and when it does, that 2.5 or 3 weeks before you leave will just rush by!!
Robyn is wonderful, and you can be sure that God has His hand on her, and your child, as she works to bring your family together. She truly has the gift of discernment, and it'll be a wonderfully rich day when the curtain is pulled back, and you meet the kiddo God has for you!
If you ever need to vent/chat...please feel free to e-mail me at mrschangstein@telus.net. (the Mennonites need to stick together - my maiden name is Ens!)
Blessings on you both!
Lots of hugs and prayers.
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